I'm tired of looking and tired of not looking.
Always getting my hopes up, only to be let down every time.
I've gone on several dates these past couple months but there just wasn't anything there worthwhile. And I rejoined a dating site back in the springtime but haven't had much luck with that either.
Might as well be invisible.
I've been told not to pick just anyone but then I never meet a man of that caliber. If I always hold out and wait, how will I gain any relationship experience? I feel like I'll make all my mistakes when the right one comes along...which will make it not so right.
Markers in Moleskine journal - (NFS)
When will I find someone to kiss me again, to hold me, to love me, to fuck me?
Will I ever find love that lasts?
I want someone faith-driven with values and strong morals. An attractive, wonderful man looking for love and commitment. NOT something "casual" or an open relationship or someone who thinks there's nothing wrong with hooking up.
Maybe the type of man I seek only exists in the straight community.
When the days are long and work wears me down, it sucks not having anyone to comfort me. Always having to keep it to myself and handle it on my own.
In the end, I'm left feeling empty, terribly alone...and disappointed.